I had a strange shift in my guitar playing these fast few weeks. I was pretty on top of doing some intense practice for the past three months, and that suddenly stoped. Go from an average of 18-25 hours/week with my instrument down to about 10ish now is a pretty dramatic change.
But I have a theory! It’s not that I’m less passionate about my instrument it’s just that I’ve learned two pretty large works this semester (about 20 minutes of music memorized and pretty much ready to perform). My lack of drive to practice is a result of an increase in drive to get out there and play for some real people.
So I decided to give a recital next semester, which is apparently unheard of–masters students here are only supposed to give one recital in the two years it takes, I’ll be doing a couple. I’m also going to perform at a few “mixed bag” student recitals along the way.
Maybe that missing “passion” isn’t about a lack of drive to play the instrument, but that an outlet is needed first before anything else can happen. Sometimes music is a strange process.